When I was a child, I often went down the street and sat overlooking the bay as a way to escape my parents who were mentally ill and abusive. Sitting there I would feel the calm of the water rush over me and take in the sound of the waves hitting the rocks below my feet. I felt my back against the little lighthouse that called the claming boats to the shore after a hard day's work. I could feel the energy of peace and homecoming wash over me.
When I was old enough and had resources, I entered therapy. It was from this experience of viewing my life from a different perspective, namely, I was not at fault for my experiences; that led me into knowing more about what my experiences could be.
I wanted to explore with other people what their life could be. I became a therapist.
I was interested in what the world was. I wanted to know what the natural world was. Not the world that is described to me by any one around me, but the world as it is. I started to journey. In my shamanic visualizations I traveled to places outside of the earth, into the universe and followed doorways and gateways into energetic lights, castles, starbursts and planets made of pink air. I breathed in this air and I felt love. I traveled into the earth. I followed worms that led me to Africa onto desert landscapes overlooking herds of elephants. I became the elephant. I felt my tusks. I scraped mud onto my back. I felt the power and protection of my family.
I looked out into middle earth from the vision that all was alive. I hugged trees. I felt what they said. Some hopped. All were joyful. The trees remember me when I leave my desert home in Phoenix for the North Country. When I see them, they talk to me all at once.
During one shamanic journey, I did not get a vision.
I heard a voice. I thought something was wrong. I wanted to know more. The voice was suggesting a move.
he voice came with a vision, a hawk sitting on a saguaro. I kept seeing it. I moved from New York to Phoenix.
Nothing hides in the desert. All becomes seen and burned off with the heat of the sun. I saw my shadow. I became more knowing of myself.
The guide's voice became stronger. I listened. I focused on energies that brought me into other worlds. One day I went running in Papago Park. I passed a woman, a Native American with cropped hair.
I felt uncomfortable because she was obviously meditating. I followed the path five feet away from her. I looked back and saw a pile of rocks. The shock wave went through my body. I had shape shifted into another time.
I followed the path up to Hole in the Rock, an ancient Hohokam observatory. A plaque at the bottom of the mountain of Hole in the Rock described a small scraped square that marked the sun's crossing during the soltice. I climbed the mountain. In the naturally carved out hole, I asked the guides to show me the marker. They said "turn around". I turned around. They said "look up to the left". I did and immediately my eyes fell on the marker.
I went into Jungian analysis. The dreamworld is alive; I wanted to know more about how I was living without my ego keeping me from the truth. Dreams don't lie. They talk to you with truth about how you carry out your life.
Each day I would listen to my guidance. I wrote books, JFK is Still Alive, articles for Sedona of Emergence, Mystic Pop and the internet and started to provide sessions for people. I was given a radio show, the Rochelle Sparrow Connection. Through careful listening and following the guidance, I found out what they do. I found out what they do for all of us.
About nine months ago, I took a trip to Sedona to meet with Brit Elders of Shirley Maclaine.com. I had been interviewed on her show for a channeled book I had written and began to offer channeled guidance for people through her site once a month.
Before our scheduled meeting, I went to the meditation room and sat meditating. The guides told me I was done now and walked out and ran head on into Michael Firewalker, new owner of the healing center. He began to talk in a very inspired way. I knew I was supposed to listen. He said, "I know what a producer does.
The son of a famous producer told me. He holds the vision. This one comes along and says I want to do this, the producer fires him. Another one comes along and says you should do it this way, the producer fires him. The producer states what is the vision and all else falls away." Michael looked at me and said, "What are you producing?" I didn't answer, I hadn't thought of myself as a producer.
I left saying I had a dinner meeting and went to meet Brit. In the car I became inspired. What about a channel, 24/7, all with spiritual shows? I had a vision. I shared it with Brit, a woman I knew for all of five minutes, she said she was in.
Through this vision, Spirit Productions was born. I began a close friendship with Elizabeth Gaelyn Baker.
We began to follow the guidance each day.
I want to share with you a story. A story of us, people, how we really are, not what is said we are.
Our guidance whether it comes from a voice, a vision, a spiritual prompt, a dream, a claivoyant sensory perception or a gut feeling, is about energy.
Energy that is a language from inside of us that moves out to other dimensions and from those dimensions back to us again. Take away our bodies and what we have is still us, us in our energetic forms, our feelings, our thoughts, we are still alive.
My guides have been telling me to focus on the energy of the ancestors. They have been telling Elizabeth to forgive her mother for betrayal for when she was a child. She has forgiven her mother with love. They have been telling me through my dream state and channeled words to connect more with them.
Yesterday, I went to get my nails done. Sitting in the chair peacefully concentrating on the energy of connecting with my ancestors, I heard something crack. A longtime energy, a psychological block had cracked and I felt it move away from me in my mind. I felt the rigid defense leave my aura as well as the bad feelings underneath it. I felt the tribe of my ancestors wanting me, I had done nothing to be ostercized and, finally, I knew it.
I went home. There on my door was a card from a private investigator telling me to get a hold of him.
My neice, Tara, wanted to contact me. I had not seen my niece in ten years. My sister, her mother, is bipolar and a meth addict. Tara was fifteen at the time. Since I lived in New York and she in California, all I could do was pray for her and silence the relationship with my sister.
The world is not a linear place. It can show itself to be and create the false illusion that is all it is. But what is really present is a place of energies which actualized themselves in this dimension in various ways it is called upon to do so.
Last night in my psychic development class, the guides identified for a client a past life which continues to carry energy in this life. She was a slave. In this life she felt enslaved by her relationship with her mother. We cut the past life cords from her aura and she felt them move away. Pain that she was feeling in her feet was instantly gone. Through channeled guidance and her own intuition, she began to focus on the energy of emotional freedom.
if I had not done my work in connecting with my ancestors, would I have channeled clearly the energy for her to focus upon? Would the energy have reverberated out through our connection in a different way, a way that was not as clear? Was the timing of this class moved from a place of no time to perfect time from above?
Elizabeth and I are connecting our energy with the ancestors and healing our connections, past, present and future with our ancestors. If we did not, could we connect with people from all directions and produce our vision of Spirit Productions? It is the energy that creates. And the energy often looks like it is non-sensical, non-linear and of no relationship to what must be done in a logical manner.
It is a wonderful paradox, focus on the energy and it creates. We cannot know nor predict the outcome. We must give up control to gain control.
We are all miracles in creation because we can all communicate through our energy. We do whether or not we even admit it, know it or recognize it. But once we do, wow, once we do, then what? I want to find out more.
Rochelle Sparrow, Psychic Trance Channel, MSW, LCSW
offers indepth energetic therapeutic sessions for individuals, couples and groups at $75.00 per half hour.
info@rochellesparrow.com
www.rochellesparrow.com
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